Pondering...

So I was sitting in church tonight and was worshiping and praying pretty much like I normally would. But there was something very different happening tonight as I was worshiping. As we were singing worship songs there were certain lines of the songs that stuck out to me. But by stuck out, I really mean I couldn't shake them out of my mind until I wrote them down; even as I was singing other lyrics my mind was still stuck on the other lyrics.
One of the phrases was "struck with wonder, awestruck wonder at the mention of Your name." As I was thinking about that phrase I was almost baffled. I know that I am not struck with wonder; let alone awestruck wonder; at the mention of His name. I wonder why that is though? Maybe it has to do with the fact that our society has used the name of our father in such derogatory ways that it just seems impossible to be struck with wonder. But man, I want to be struck with wonder at just the mention of His name. He is such an amazing God, it seems like such an atrocity to me that we can't even be in awe of our God because we seek the approval of man so much!
Another phrase was "I've lost myself for good within Your glory." I almost think that stands alone; I don't even need to say anything. But man, I want to lose myself for real within Him. He wants us to lose ourselves within Him. It doesn't seem like it would be that hard of a concept, but apparently it is and He is willing and wants to help us with it; but we have die to ourselves to even begin to fathom what losing ourselves in Him means or looks like.
The last phrase was "Rose and conquered the grave!" How many people do YOU know that rose from the dead and conquered the grave? Huh? I sure don't know any; well except for one, and his name, well... his name is Jesus Christ. Nothing and no one can tell me different. First of all, He died on a cross for every human being, but he would have done it if it was just for me or for you. Then after dying he rose from the dead; he conquered the grave. That is such a hard concept for me to grasp because people don't raise up from the dead after being dead for three days very often. And in conquering the grave, He made a way for you and me to have eternal life with Him in a place that is so much better than this world that we live in now. No more troubles that we deal with daily here.
I can't imagine knowing these things and willingly turning my back on it all.