Do you ever feel like you need a break? Like life can't get any worse? Like all the walls are caving in on you and maybe even the floor is collapsing? Almost as if everything you know is being taken away from you? I kind of feel that way right. I have been clinging to the Brooke Fraser song that talks about "when the world is falling out from under me, I'll be found in You" but I really do just want a break. For everything to stop, people to stop dying/almost dying, finances to be better, relationships not to be complicated, and so on. But as much as I wish things were better and I could get a break even if it was just a little one, what would that really accomplish? Maybe a little more sanity for me, but it really wouldn't help me to have to trust God. The bible says that God will never give us more than we can handle or endure; but I think I am getting to the end of my rope on dealing with things. This last year was the hardest year of my life and this new year doesn't really look like it is making more sense yet. I want to be a woman after God's heart, but for real. I want to know him so intimately almost as if I can hear his heartbeat and feel him hugging me and picking me up. I don't want him to just be this higher power that is added to me life; I want him to be my life and then other things just added in as he tells me too add them. I truly want to be that Proverbs 31 woman and nothing less than that.
Please be praying for me my friends.
January 19, 2010
When the world is falling out from under me
Posted by Rachael Nicole at 1:38 AM
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Oh Rachael Stone....how I love you and reading these. truly helps me too, and I will for sure be lifting you up in my prayers :)
you have shown incredible strength and been an amazing role model for me in my walk with Jesus so keep it up girl, you are one incredible woman.. He made you strong for a reason, keep using that gift of yours :D
Rachael Nicole, God will never leave you or forsake you. He will strengthen you and allow you to keep going. It's true about having a break, it gives a little more sanity, but truly we have to learn to trust in God anyways... You will see one day how much He is truly doing in you right now, even though it is hard and frustrating. You will see my girl that God does nothing in vain and that He does use EVERYTHING for our good. Don't get tired of trusting, He is being faithful.
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